This week sucks so far.

Well it just seems that the wall are just going to keep falling down around me. Hell once I beat NCAA March Madness 08 and then I just lost my gaming again. I have like no desire to play anything anymore. Its like what the hell is wrong with me. I know deep down inside and let the person know how I felt. Took a lot to come out and say but when it comes down on deaf ears I guess it doesn't matter. I break 55K which is half way to my goal and it's like why the fuck do I care. Not like there's a reason for it or something. But it's sad that I can't seem to be happy and be able to do something at the same time. I guess I'm just not meant to be happy. And thats how its going to be.