Hard Times

Why is it that lately Ive been snapping easier. Its like there is sometimes no trust or communication between us. I wish it wasn't like this and when I try to rectify the situation but it works to no avail. I just want to punch a wall sometimes. I feel like I don't do enough or I just make the questions be raised on how I feel. It hurts a lot inside me and I don't know how to handle this and what not and it doesn't help me out. I feel as if I get angry more sometimes for the things that are done more then the things that aren't done. Im sorry I snapped at you when you were on my comp. Its just one of those things I guess. Its not like I dont have trust in you its just I don't know I guess I am ashamed of some of the things that are there. I guess because I am facinated by weird things but this is just me. Its who I am. If I don't understand things I try to find out why they are the way that they are.

So I am a big fuck up around here. What else is new.