Life is.....So Wonderful and Joyous

Ever been sad and depressed and know why but your too afraid to talk about it? Hell that's how I feel about 90% of the time when I show my emotions. People ask me whats wrong but Im just at a loss of words to say something and I feel when I do its not going to be what they want to hear. Although I tend to be blunt with people it doesn't matter when or help the situation with myself. I guess I feel bad because of the situation. Im sorry I have problems talking about my feelings and such. I feel bad because the woman thinks its her fault but in all fairness its not at all. Its just me when I start thinking about things. I guess I just want to be held when im this sad. Its like its a mix of everything hitting me. But on the same note I just want to get out of the funk. I guess I'll feel better in a couple hours when this is all said and done. And to think about this all, I wanted to be more upbeat on this blog...Oh well guess theres my next post for this.