Blasphemy

Well seems once again if I make a "snicker" or laugh it always ends up bad. But nothing new. Guess its how my sense of humor is. A fucked up one that finds what people say sometimes funny as shit. Well thats how life goes.

Why Do People?

Feel the need to tell me something that I really dont care about. So you treat me like your own and you don't like to yell? Then why not say something in the 1st place. But no there is nothing said and then you finally explode. People have to realize what I have had in my life and such. Nothing is pretty. I'm not saying it is. But thanks to everyone anymore Im going to be getting less sleep if the cripple wants me to stay here which she thinks will be an attitude adjustment. Deep down inside I can tell this is what she thinks. So I've changed welcome to life. I want less and less to deal with people. WELCOME TO MY FUCKING WORLD. I dont like dealing with people and I never have. I'd rather not deal with people unless I have to. Oh so you don't have a way to get a hold of me. You didn't ask how to. Instead it all just comes tumbling down and you bitch some more, and more, and more. My woman has nothing to do with this. You just want control and since it was taken away from you, now your upset about it all. Thats all this is, a game of control. I never told you to do anything for me and telling me to take responsibility for things in my life. Well skippy I already do. I manage on my own. I do a pretty damn good job of these things. Just because I am not around all the fucking time doesn't.

People dont understnad what I have been put thru and what I have been going thru.
No one understands.

Happy Late Turkey Day and Black Friday

Well not much has happened since my last post. But since then I have taken a test for my PSY 100 class which seemed pretty easy for me. Overall I think I did really good on the test. Turkey day was alright watched a little bit of football not much but just enough to say hell yes I watched some football. Didnt end up eating till 9 PM which did sorta suck. But at least I was able to eat before I went to work. And then work was short and quick which is an awesome thing esp on the holidays. But I met the woman after I got off work at Old Navy where I felt bad for her because she was all bundled up. At least she got what she went there for in the 1st place. I went to Wal Mart where I camped out for some games. Which I had to wait till 5 am but ended up with Dragon Age Origins (Not Sure If Going To Keep) Left 4 Dead 2 and Hasboro Family Game Night all for under $100 bucks. Then it was off to Radio shack to get me a bigger memory card for my phone. Now rocking a 4gb micro SD card. Cost me 10 bucks. Ended up getting 2 of them one for someone else which was not a problem. Aside the lady in front of me getting pissed off because they didn't have a phone which made me lulzicon inside after i heard what it was. Then it was off to Lowes for someone to get a Shop Vac and drill combo set. Might I add getting both of those for under $100 was a great deal. I think I saved more money then I actually spent in the store which was pretty funny. But otherwise there is nothing as of late to report. Lulz. Report.

And In Case I dont see you. Good Afternoon, Good Evening And Good Night!!
Jason The Panda Nakanishi (Elmo TeH AzN)

Long Update From Last.

If only people would understand. I am free to do what I want to when I want to. Just because I am 10 minutes away doesn't mean anything I didnt know it was that hard for people to just sit and relax. Oh I need you to do this I need you to help out do this, do that. Thats fine but I'm never really here so I don't get what the problem is. I can help out if it is really that big of a deal. And I don't think you realize I am trying to live my own life but you're making it pretty much impossible but oh well. Nothing new around here for me.

In other news I am top 25 for Gamerscore in Ohio I achieved my goal of 100k and the 1% badge on 360voice. And just been now in a race to get the 3* Fighting badge and the new race to Complete Assassin's Creed 2 which is turning out to be a challenge.

Denial Of My Blog.

Guess I have been busy or something or just not feeling it. Anymore what can I say sometimes it hard to sit down here and write a nice blog post. Eh it gets pretty bad because I can't remember half of the things I want to say here because I think of them and then forget about writing them down. Oh well. Nothing new there. In reality I have a lot of good things going on:
I broke 100,000 Gamerscore. Some people might look at this as bad, for me this was a big milestone and one I worked really hard to earn. Took me little over a year to put up 70k just to even have a shot of doing it this year. Since then I haven't done much.

Me and the woman are good and I think I am the happiest I have been in a long long while. I just don't care what anyone thinks about me and her anymore. I have the blessings of people I want. Overall everyone else can fuck off because it's my life not theirs. I know I am being hard headed about this but still. FUCK OFF.

My grandpa is hit and miss anymore but what else can you say about it all. The man is 81 years old. Personally I think he's doing as good as he can for how old he is.
Its just like this let the man live his life the way.


In other news I just had a friend hit me with one of the best deals I have heard of in a while. I love game sales. And I hate fake and flaky people. That is all.

To me woman. I love you ^^)

Its also the point when you make it seem like if I come out and say something that it's wrong or not supposed to be said. So I say nothing.
TeH NiNjA PaNdA

Alone?

Why is this that sometimes I feel all alone although I know someone is there. I can understand I am not popular or anything or even have that many friends. I guess I just forces myself into this solitude of not having many people around me or anything. It is like I tend to scare them away or something. But what else is new about this. I feel somewhat bad that this is what I have become but this is what the world has helped shape me into.